a birthday message to a dear friend

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Ever have a truly happy moment when time stands still and you quietly realize, "This is what life's all about!"?

In that very split second of comprehension all of the joy and wonder of being alive rushes in to your whole being. The happiness is almost tangible. You can feel it throughout your body, your mind, your entire spirit. The ecstasy of that feeling takes your breath away as you surrender all your thoughts and actions to experience it. You stop. You don't want to let it go. You barely move as you try to hold on to it for as long as it lasts. You feel happy, whole and complete. Nothing stands in your way of living the life that was meant to be.

I had one of those moments today.

It wasn't because of what I was doing at the time. It wasn't about where I was at that moment. It had nothing to do with sharing that immediate second with anyone else. The moment wasn't attached to a person, place or thing. It had no wants, needs or desires to complete it. It existed on it's own with nothing between it and me. All I could think was, "Wow... I am really happy..." It still shocks me sometimes... lol

And then I thought, this is the best gift I could give to a very special person for his birthday today. The knowledge that all of his time had not been wasted. That all of his compassion had not gone unanswered. That the countless hours and days and months of hoping and giving and believing and encouraging had brought me to this place of abundant joy and peace. For him to know without a shadow of a doubt, that I know who I am and that there is no one I would rather be, no where I'd rather go and nothing I'd rather see than what is right here and now in this very instant before me. I own me.

To comprehend that in that fleeting moment ~
I see it... I feel it... I grasp it... I love it...
And I know I am forever free.

You know the best part? The aha moment of recognizing it in it's purest form at the exact second when it was happening and then being able to thank you with a knowing smile that can't be seen ~ for never giving up on me.

Happy birthday Michael...
Thank you for always believing in me... *kotc*