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Yesterday I turned 47. It was a perfect day. The sun shown, friends and family helped me move to my new home and I broke bread with those I love with all my heart.

Every January seems to bring about a huge change in my life. I don't know why it works that way, but it does. January is the month that my brother killed himself. It is the month I decided to go on a low carb diet after hitting 265 pounds and it is the month that I attained (a year later) my goal of losing 110 pounds which put me in a size 10. It is the month that my separation took place after over twenty years of marriage. It is the month I received Hope (on my birthday!). And it is the month ~ on my birthday this year again ~ that my only request for Christmas was granted ~ a home.
I have a place to call my own.

This year, 2009, will be interesting to watch as it unfolds. For the first time, I'm sitting back and simply gliding along the path that is already chosen for me. I will not fight, claw and scrape for what I want... this time, I will simply wait, watch and be willing for the rest of my destiny. I am ready moreso than ever before. With each growth experience, I have taken that deep breath in and exhaled slowly comprehending what has happened. Growth is painful... but rewarding if we learn from what transpired.

To all of you who read here ~ thank you for being there for me this past year since Hurricane Ike. It made a world of difference for me this time as I regrouped and started the rebuilding of a life. The universe has a way of giving you what you need when you need it ~ as long as you accept what is given. May each and every one of you receive a hundred fold back what you have given to me this past year.

Thank you to all my friends and family for giving me hope for a new year! I didn't think it would be possible to start all over again. I was wrong... :)